This morning I pushed the “red button” to launch and signed a book contract. In the next nine to twelve months, Pouring In, Instilling a Personal, Passionate, and Permanent Faith in the Next Generation will be on bookstore shelves and on Amazon! Praise God! It’s been a long time coming.
He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. Philippians 1:6
I didn’t make this decision lightly. As I prayed about it for two weeks, I heard God say, “What are you afraid of? I gave you this book.” . . . or, did I? or, Was I just hearing what I wanted to hear God say? or, Was it just the voices in my head?
As I celebrated with family and friends, I could hear the subtle whisper of doubt in my ear.
Although the excitement of signing a book contract is overwhelming, so is the fear. What if no one buys my book? What if I can’t finish it on time? What if I FAIL?!
The fear of failure can be paralyzing.
I was watching William Lane Craig’s Defenders class on YouTube a couple months ago when he said, “Failure might be God’s will for your life.”
God’s will for your life can be that you fail. God can lead you into failure. Because he has things to teach you through failure that you can’t learn through success. ~WLC
I had to stop and sit with that for a while. That thought has never crossed my mind.
Is it OK if failure is in God’s will for your life or for mine?
Obviously we won’t fail spiritually if we are following Christ. And we won’t fail when it comes to eternity. We have victory in Christ and nothing can change that. Amen!
But, what if it is not in His plan for me to be successful? Ever?! Would I be OK with that?
Again, I sat with it.
Part of me wanted to just jump up and appear holy and righteous by saying, “Whatever Thou willeth I will doeth with joyeth!” But, is that real? Could I really rejoice in that?
The more I thought about it, the more I realized that failure and success are a state of mind. They are an attitude not an absolute.
My soul longs to love Jesus Christ and to follow Him with reckless abandon.
If we pursue Jesus as though He is the only thing that we are chasing, nothing else matters. If we surrender our lives to Christ, then success or failure become irrelevant.
Therefore, it doesn’t matter if my book succeeds or fails. All that matters is if it brings glory to God and His Son Jesus Christ. It’s all about Him.
A friend of mine who was about to start fundraising for her new ministry once told me, “don’t chase after the money . . . . chase after the mission, and God will provide.”
As I rest on the threshold of this extraordinary adventure, this is my prayer.
Dear Abba, Father,
Lord, you are so good and so loving. Thank you for your Word and the promise that You will never leave me. You are always by side. Therefore, I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Keep my eyes always on You as I venture out into the great unknown. Build my trust day by day, and keep my spirit open to your Word. Help me stay connected to the vine, Lord, because YOU are my lifeblood, YOU are the air I breathe, and YOU are my everything. In Your Son’s precious name. Amen.
To God be the glory! Here we go!